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12/13/2025
First night with the new diary schedule, oh boy. My plan is to write about my day every night before I go to bed, just so I can use this every day. Speaking of, it was a pretty good day. I got some art done for a friend, an artist I like on Bluesky, and for myself, I got that writing done for Yojimbo, and just before this I started on some art of Hornet & Lace from Silksong - need to put that & the other art I did on here whenever I'm done with em. I tried to get some exercise today by swinging a stick in my backyard, but unfortunately, winter is very cold lol, could only be out there for a few minutes. I need to try & make some genuine progress on Skyrim or Phantasy Star Online - I'm not having that thing where I lose interest & never finish them (at least I hope not), I've just been really slow playing them. Suppose that can be a good thing as long as I don't get scatterbrained.. Think I'm gonna go try to work on this Hornet art some more, then hit the hay. Let's see what happens tomorrow.
12/14/2025
Art is posted, I'm sure some people noticed. I'm on a bit of a Hollow Knight art kick for some reason... Got some big-ish commissions lined up to do, wonder if i can get them all done this week, that'd be nice. Speaking of, I've been trying out a method with noise filters to get some texture on my art, I think it looks really nice, adds a lot of spice to it. The whole house has been different shades of sick, it kinda sucks... That's about it really, just been drawing today, nothing crazy.
12/15/2025
Tried 2 new things today. First was an indie game I got on Steam called Flyknight. It's a first-person Dark Souls-like styled after Runescape, featuring flies & other insects, as well as fishing. It's been fun so far, got a build going that focuses on jump attacks. The second new thing was Bandcamp; I needed a new place to listen to music cuz Youtube kept giving me the same stuff, and I don't use Spotify anymore. So far it's great, I've found 3 really good artists on here so far, might try buying an ablum from them. This Ninajirachi artists especially, I am loving her brand of electronic music. Definitely going to report back with the music I listen to tomorrow.
12/16/2025
Day did not go well. Finished two commissions today. Learned that Larian Studios is using generative AI while admitting it's not helping them out while making the new Divinity. The Hollow Knight art made someone uncomfortable, that's probably the worst part of today, had to go clear it off of where I posted it. Also had to order a new charger for my laptop, my current one is going out. Today was not it, might do an internet fast tomorrow, I'm not sure. If i don't make a post, then assume the fast happened.
12/17/2025
nothing to note...
12/18/2025
Feeling a little bit better now. Was trying to mourn the death of one of our kittens, they were sick & never recovered. I was pretty zoned out since then, didn't really know what to do. It might be too long for a diary entry, so I might just make a blogpost about the recent bandcamp artists I've been listening too, once I have more of them under my belt. Going to try and get back into art soon, need to still finish some commissions. See you tomorrow, hopefully it turns out ok.
12/19/2025
Well, I managed to start on one of the commissions I needed to do, so I think I'm starting to get back to relative normalcy. Getting close to beating FlyKnight, it's a relatively short game. I already have my new year's resolution being 'play as many indie games as i can, because AA & AAA won't go away, I can always download the games later.' That's about it, really.. Might try to throw up some stuff I've been drawing, we'll see.
12/20/2025
Repeat of yesterday, except i'm nearing the end of Skyrim instead. Never got very far in it, so I'm happy. About as happy as I can be at the moment, at least...
12/21/2025
Finished a commission today, along with FlyKnight. Turns out I was genuinely a few steps away from the final boss... It was a pretty fun game. Fairly short at about 4 hours, but it was still fun. Speaking of games, I... finally got into Destiny 2.. and it only took them overhauling the game like 20 times. Thanks to that though, I'm really starting to get a handle on the game. Even had fun with PVP somehow, weird.
12/22/2025
Had a meh day today. Didn't have much energy for drawing today, spent it playing Destiny 2 & watching Youtube. I did get my charger, and it feels good having something new. That's about it, not really much to note.
12/23/2025
Finally finished all the outstanding comms I had to do, now I've earned a break for a few days. Thinking tomorrow, I'll go hit up the thrift store, see if there's anything worth grabbing. Probably won't have any Christmas art done, but ah well..
12/24/2025
Didn't end up going to the thrift store unfortunately... I always get a little moody during holidays, especially since my dad passed. I still miss him a lot.. had the feeling he'd show up at our door on Christmas morning, even though I know it wouldn't happen.. Today was ok at least, drew that Vib-Ribbon art, guess that counts as holiday art. Also started on a game called Gearbits, it's a simplified Armored Core basically. Another short game I think, mostly mission based. Was in the mood to watch the first Godzilla movie from 1954 for some reason.. Might try and find it tomorrow, not like I'm expecting much else for Christmas..
12/25/2025
nothing to note, just depressed...
12/26/2025
Didn't get much for Christmas, just spent most of it sad. Don't really have much else to note, today was just meh.
12/27/2025
I never liked spending money when it comes to getting things delivered. It always ends up being more expensive than I would like, it's really annoying. On the plus side, nearing the end of this Gearbits game, it's a little tough. You can't take much damage even with a heavily armored robot. Also slowly working on a new blogpost, at least the art for it. I might talk about it soon.
12/28/2025
Finally got a new blogpost done today about the music I've listened to, might have to start writing about random things I see if I want to try & do this more often. Did get a lot of commissions today on Discord, so that was nice. I'm also training myself to try & walk to the grocery store that's about a mile away from my house; if I'm able to get there & back, I can cut out so many delivery fees when I need food... oh, and the health benefits of walking are good too I guess...
12/29/2025
Got a commission done today, thankfully went quick, hopefully I can keep this momentum going. Tried going for my walk again today since I made an alarm for it, but it was super cold today, forced me back home before I could get to the spot that I wanted to try & beat. Guess I can try again tomorrow, assuming it's not as cold again..
12/30/2025
It was too cold to walk today again, damn it. Probably just a late night thought that won't go anywhere, but I miss making youtube videos. I think I'd like to try & get back into it, but Youtube (the site) is just so unappealing to work in... I also don't really have any video ideas that sound fun. Maybe one of these days next year I'll try getting back into it, IDK. Wonder if anything weird will happen at the end of the year tomorrow... I do know I might try to update some of the colors or UI elements on the site next year, think it's about time to clean stuff up.
12/31/2025
Happy New Year everyone, I'm probably not gonna be awake to see it. Can't wait to get the new year started ^w^
1/1/2026
New Year feels like it's off to an alright start, got a commission done. Also been playing Shadow the Hedgehog with the Reloaded mod; I'm finding myself really liking the game once I got used to how slippery it is to control. Yeah, the story's a lil dumb & the level design could be better, but it's not as bad as I thought. I know I said I'd only play indie games, but stuff like this is probably fine every once in a while. Speaking of, sometime soon I'm gonna try to work on a new youtube video, a challenge run of FlyKnight. Game is small, figured that would be a good way to get back into things.
1/2/2026
You have... no idea how nice it feels to open up OBS again & record gameplay. I knew a FlyKnight challenge run was a good idea; I don't want to spoil too much about it, but it really feels like I'm making a ymfah video. Hopefully I'll be able to finish the vid by the end of the month. Can't wait to see the end of the run & get to editing. In the meantime, i started on another commission, and helped get some important grocery stuff to the house. All in All, pretty alright day.
1/3/2026
Of course the government had to test my patience... haven't really done much today, world events got into my head. I at least got another run of Shadow the Hedgehog done. I unironicaly like the game & think it's underrated, as long as you're using the Reloaded mod. Did Neutral Hero (he thinks he's an android and starts a revolution with Omega), Pure Hero (Did as Maria wished & protected Earth, even if he kinda stole Tails' emerald in Circus Park), and Pure Dark (it was neutral until Prison Island, where Shadow's anger towards GUN's capture of him makes him believe in Gerald's wish of revenge on humanity.) I love having headcanons for how the routes go, it's very fun.
1/4/2026
Started editing the FlyKnight video, it feels real nice being in the OpenShot studio again. Also did more Shadow today, got a Semi-Hero Dark path (messed with Eggman a lot by accident, path was called Excess of Intellect. I headcanon that his experience with Eggman & then the ARK made him remember his promise to protect those who died on there, & so he chooses to live in seclusion to protect the colony's remains. Why it's the Dark ending while the Hero ending for that same level - Cosmic Fall - is Shadow getting horrifically depressed, I'll never know). I've fallen in love with the game, it is a goldmine for character work & fanfic stuff, and for my brain that is amazing. I have to get a Black Comet ending, and then thanks to this mod I'll get to do the Last Story & say I've beaten the game.
1/5/2026
I had a very exhausting day today. Woke up super early, couldn't go back to sleep thanks to a cat that snuck into my room. Thankfully, I figured out free cam on Dolphin so I could get cool shots with Shadow, and I figured out how to change his textures. Also did more editing on the Flyknight video; one 30 minute chunk of gameplay was reduced to 6, I think that's a good pace. After I get started on some commissions, I need to record the rest of the gameplay for editing.. maybe get some Shadow footage too in case I want to work on something smaller for a second..
1/7/2026
I honestly remember writing in here yesterday... things haven't changed much. I got some Shadow gameplay recorded, need to work on that. Unfortunately, I spent today really frazzled & zoned out. Don't really have much else to say.
1/8/2026
More of the same today, mostly stressed about commissions. Not feeling confident about my ability to handle one of them, but I'd feel terrible for backing out now, even if they'd understand. Slightly more progress was made on a Shadow video, if i can't do the Flyknight video by the end of this month, at least Shadow should work. Hopefully I can get over this mental hurdle with the commission tomorrow.. at the very least, work up the heart to refund it & move on.
1/9/2026
Today was remarkably better than yesterday. I started the commission, and another one, so I should hopefully have those done soon. As well, I'm close to finishing this Shadow video as well. Gonna watch it tomorrow, make the final edits, then make a thumbnail & post it, I'm so excited.
1/10/2026
Finished a comm today, so that's nice. Got this time on Shadow Reloaded, Prison Island Normal in 1:46:72. I know I can do better, but I'm very happy with this time, I'm not a speedrunner naturally.
1/11/2026
I need to get back on my walking tomorrow, it's been way too cold the past few days. On the bright side, getting closer to finishing another commission. I also got inspired to make a new OC, a big moth lady who works as a security guard & writer. I.. don't know if I could share it, but still lol. Today was alright.
1/12/2026
Finally finished the SHadow the Hedgehog video ;w; I need to do the thumbnail, and then it can go public tomorrow. I'm so excited to try & get back into video creation, it's too fun.
1/13/2026
Shadow video released, and someone i know watched a good bit of it & laughed. It feels nice knowing some people out there really do like my videos, I need to try & make more. Only problem is just figuring out what to record exactly.. definitely need to do a video about either a fangame or an indie game, I've given emulators enough love lol.
1/14/2026
Today was frustrating. Despite having ideas for what to draw, I think commission work and the Shadow video left me burnt out.. Couldn't even get myself to play any games. Guess I need a few days of inactivity before I can make stuff again.
1/15/2026
Nothing to note. Same as yesterday, just spent it exhausted from lack of sleep and shot nerves.
1/16/2026
Finally got some energy for drawing, two things for me & an art trade with a friend. I also managed to beat a game today, Grimhook. It was more like a tech demo, it was a very short game & ended right when things got interesting. Still, can't complain too much, it was free. Still tired and on edge, unfortunately.
1/17/2026
Spent most of the day randomly sick, I am mad.
1/20/2026
Really sorry for skipping 2 days of diary, was really sick with something, unable to draw much. On the plus side, yesterday my mom had us order pizza and fries, so that was nice. On another note, for some reason I had the idea of trying to write.. Shadow 05 fanfiction. yeah really. I find justifying story routes to be really fun, so why not write a short story about it? I'll probably post it here whenever it's done. I'm also feeling less sick now, so hopefully I can get back into drawing and working on videos soon.
1/21/2026
Spent most of the day sad and stressed about commissions.